Showing posts with label Me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Me. Show all posts

February 12, 2013

Soul mate- The Best Friend Ever




The World is Simple; it’s miserable and solid… Solid, all the way through but If you can fool it even for a second you can make wonders…

As I did;



I was Alone, in the mornings i wake, I sit and stare.

I think upon my thoughts, I cry out but no one hears, I pray to be loved, I try to understand why, Alone I feel afraid I am unwanted, I want to be someone else to share my secrets!

I sing a sweet song and watch over my shadow.

I wish for good things to come and hope for the bad to go away
I pray to survive as if I may not survive!

On a fine day, I was, as usual, Alone!

My heart jumped out. It was swimmingly shouting. I asked why it is jumping all around. It wanted me to hear something about a soul!

My heart voiced about a congenial soul that can be my Soul mate…

I was astonished.

My heart heard a story, without my knowledge! I never believed. After confabulating a lot, it started.

“I know a Super Hero, a Perfect one to accompany you to overcome your pain and struggles!” I am calling this a confession but I think it’s more likely that this is my way of getting my head around everything that has taken place in, with the feelings, with the wanting and wishing. You have no idea how much I wish I could be the person you want me to be, how I wish I could be the loyal person you need, how much I wish my life had been different so I could be with you, so I could show you how crazy I am to spend time with you”

“The soul was a boy lived with me very closely for 4 Years. Even now, it’s just the distance that meant he is away from me.

He is one of those unorthodox characters I’ve ever seen. He is unique in his own ways. You can’t judge him so easily. It’s like sometimes you think he’ll act highly responsible and he totally acts opposite or vice versa. That’s him!

He was my friend, a good friend, a very good friend, a very close friend and sometimes a very bad enemy too.

The Mixed relationship has something more than Normal. There will be more learning, more understanding and of course, as usual, Happy Endings.

We had a good start and gradually he gained lots and lots of acquaintances which consequently turned into good friendship. I don’t know what made him close. We were so close and we had silly arguments and lots of fun!

He got a very high potential, He often says that I am his Inspiration. But the Amount of talent and attitude he has, he must not consider me as an inspiration.  There are so many to say. Some of his tasks are highly impossible for a normal person.

Though he has minuses, the way he comes back after a defeat, the learning hunger, the passion to improve and equip himself he has so that he can even be taken as a role model…

A Role Model!  He could lead you!

That’s the conclusion of the heart about the congenial soul.

The word “Leadership” triggers a variety of meanings in each individual varying from the contributions made by heroes from the pages of history to simple acts of heroism displayed in routine and mundane affairs encountered in daily lives. Truly it is often misunderstood than understood by most individuals. This often leaves a vague impression on what Leadership is and one is often unclear as to what it entails in their respective area of influence especially at workplaces. Why should this guy lead me?  Why should I have to be this?

I was totally confused. I asked what I could do for that.

Life has multiple dimensions; why not Human beings…

My heart said,” Everyone need a Hero to solve problems. Go to that guy and Talk, He'll solve yours” and it was about to jump in.

Before it could get in I asked “who is that?”

It said “Go and See the Mirror”

Yes. Everyone has a hero within. Bringing out the hero is the best way to come out of Any struggles and that could happen when we speak to ourselves!

January 01, 2013

My 2012




My 2012 – A Small Summary…

To begin with,

Top 3 Achievements…

(i)                           Won BEST PROJECT WORK OF THE YEAR 2011-12 Title
(ii)                        Thane Relief Fund Collection about 5 Lakhs and Founded Team Tamil Thozhargal
(iii)                      Successful Completion of Engineering in Mechatronics!

Top 3 Incidents…

(i)                           A Trip with Pari, my most favorite where I learnt So many.
(ii)                        My Friend Anand Kumar & Surya’s Motivation to start Blogging.
(iii)                      Entered Tamil Twitters Zone in May 31 & Became Full Time Tweep in August.

Top 3 Fights…

(i)                           A 6-Months Fight with Anand without knowing what for the fight is!
(ii)                        A 3-Month Fight with the Gal Friend
(iii)                      Fights with Pari and Yuvaraj on regular basis.

Top 3 Disappointments

(i)                           Aratrika’s Friendship
(ii)                        June-July-August
(iii)                      STR

Top 3 Personalities I met…

(i)                           Rajan Radhamanalan @ RajanLeaks
(ii)                        Tamil Anandhan
(iii)                      Anu


Top 3 People who impressed me…

(i)                           S.S. Surya
(ii)                        Rajan Radhamanalan
(iii)                      Anand Kumar

Best Moments…

(i)                           Final Day of My College Life
(ii)                        Met Rajan Radhamanalan in Chennai with Yuvaraj
(iii)                      Re-Union of All Friends in Last Working Day Special Program

Unforgettables…

(i)                           Hill Ride with Yuvaraj, Aravinth & Co. to Thimbam & Gunderi Pallam
(ii)                        Un Expected Birthday wish from Rajan
(iii)                      The Break up with ******* **********

Movies that Impressed Me…

(i)                           The Dark Knight Rises
(ii)                        Neethane En Pon Vasantham

Top 3 Books I read…

(i)                           The Alchemist
(ii)                        The Lost Symbol
(iii)                      The White Tiger

Top 3 Favorite juniors…

(i)                           Prakash
(ii)                        Nirmal Kumar
(iii)                      Swedhan

 
Top 3 Expectations of Mine in 2013…

(i)                           Date of Joining
(ii)                        A Good Future
(iii)                      *******


Favorite Male Blogger: S.S Surya (amsurya.blogspot.com)
Favorite Female Blogger: Ashwini C.N (http://ash-aqua-girl.blogspot.in)

Apart from these, Had a Lot, Learnt a Lot, Enjoyed a Lot and So on…

Let this 2012 be a Memorable and the 2013 brings Happiness…

Yours,
Nasrudheen Shah

December 31, 2012

Who am I


It was dark.

Completely dark enough so that I couldn’t recognize whether my eyes are open or closed.

I am disturbed. Completely.

What distraught me was a Question! A Simple Question!
Evening My friends and I were roaming out & checked in a shop. There we found a coupon with a pretty girl filling it. We intruded to consume the offer and by the conversation she asked a question to fill the same.

It was “Who are you? Oh Sorry! What is your name?”

I replied my name. That hardly fussed me at that time.

The Damn habit of recycling things at night started the problem.

So, Who am I?

 

My Name doesn’t tell who I am. It is just an identity maybe similar to that of some product names like-that.

Human? No that’s my genes. That could help but

Male? No, that’s my gender.

My studies were just ‘what I know’ & that don’t explain Who I Am!

Being a Blogger, Engineer, Philosophy lover, Musical Slave are my accessories may be supplements. And that will not explain who I am…

Then what else is my identity?

Oh what an upheaval I am with!

Suddenly, Lights came and I paced in an indefinite road.

I was in Light!

Like a great furnace flamed, yet No light from those flames.
Rather darkness visible served only to discover sights of sorrows and shades, where peace can never dwell.
Such an Eternal Place has prepared a question for me. “Who am I?”           

Peace! It takes Time!

I will take time off to give myself in a sense to fill me up to fullness.

Of harsh reality – searing pains of Destiny: dependable propensity to fool myself repeatedly that I could ever triumph over the question! So let me help re-grow the flowers once erect in fiery showers!

For now, I am torn and when I am torn,

I've seen what love can do. Let me help myself re-grow the fire I had!

I've seen what a question can do. Let me help myself re-grow the passion I had!

I've seen what a Solitude state can do. Let me help myself re-grow the competency I had!

May be I convinced myself that I am a tool in this world sent by the creator to do something.

But “What to do? Where to do? When to do? And How to do?” remains unanswered.

I turned back to see the dark. It was too shiny to be seen.

I smiled at the darkness turned Light. It roared with its spark as if it is cheering me up.

I am sure I will get an answer…

                             

 

May 15, 2012

Incomplete Questions & Amazing Answers





Moon came down and slapped me.

 “What are you doing here” it asked in distress. “I am tired of looking you again & again”. I was astonished. I just confirmed myself that it was not a dream.

“What do you want?” it again asked I could hear any word but I understood that it was talking to me. I politely made a reply. “Are you talking to me?”.

“I could feel your agony. You are gazing me for past few hours. I just wanted to know why?” moon winced at me. “Hey you, once I read ‘The Alchemist’ the similar stuff happened to that boy named Santiago, the wind, the water & the sun talking. Is this happening to me?” I exclaimed. It slapped me again. “I should’ve never spoken to you this” Moon said.

There was a silence for few minutes and I put an end to the Silence.

 “Most of the time, when I don’t get what I solicited, I frustrate and get disappointed. And I become doubtful, of course more doubtful towards the existence. I wanted to feel exhilarated by this whole universe which is always sensitive to its initial conditions. I want to be happy, contented, and high, in tune as much as possible” I gave a sigh. It is quite strange to impart with something that really exist. I expected moon to turn up and say something. It did. “Fear of failures and the uncritical acceptance of defeat. Am I right?” Moon gave a wink. I realized what my fault is. I was searching answers for the incomplete questions. I recollected myself and said,” I really understood that the primary aim is to be happy, feel and experience the joy. I suppose to do what has to be done for this and I am done. Disappointment Every time! What else had to be done?” I started shouting. Suddenly I felt a sense of glacial feel on my foot. I looked up. I was lying in seashore. It was almost the dawn. It was the tides.

“If your ship doesn’t come off shore, swim out to get it!” said the Water, turning to me.
“I will not drown people who swim. I really drown those who stand still in me” it continued. “Go forward! You’ll not be stopped by anything except you”.

Stupendous words!

“I am not sure what the power is. I believe that it exists!” Moon said. I asked in a confused state, what exactly these things want me to do. Suddenly a cool breeze blew me cold. “You are an unorthodox personality and you need to be of your own! What you needed is Happiness, Love and Peace. You wanted to be contented but you are not. You have to be happy with what you get. You had happiness in your hand but you were searching it all around! Men never search the place where it exists!” The wind conveyed its message. I started staring the moon again. It was still looking at me. I closed my eyes. I could hear only the voices.
“It is not your job to change the world, or the people around you. It is just to be with them. I reflect the sun to give light at night. Though I am not as bright as sun, I can give light to your eyes! Why can’t you reflect Love to this world? Every human believes a lie which would blunt their minds. And the lie is, ‘There is not enough good to go around, there is lack and there is limitations. This causes fear, greed and stinginess. Live your life and I am going for the other side” Moon uttered its final words and disappeared.

Tears welled in my eyes. The sun rays hit my eyes slowly. I opened my eyes to see the Dawn! Yes. The Dawn!!!

“My Questions are Incomplete!” I realized.

“Son, I come every day. People believe themselves that they got the answers. You too needed answers. You become solution for you. Don’t point another person to owe you & give you more. Instead, give more to yourself. Take time off to give to yourself in a sense to fill yourself up to fullness. It takes Universe no time to manifest! Be real. Be strong. The Entire Universe will re arrange itself to make it happen to you” said the Sun at the Dawn!

I started walking back with confidence and satisfaction. Yes, I was real! So the Entire Universe re arranged itself to make it happen for me! I found a solution for my question. I turned back to see the Sun. It was too shiny to be seen. I smiled at the sea. It roared with it tides as if it is cheering me up.

Yes. No matter what the answer is, just enjoy the questions……